The issue of forgiveness has been on my mind of late, and specifically the ability to forgive oneself.
This is an issue I personally struggle with and yesterday I came across this quote from C. S. Lewis:
I think that if God forgives us we must forgive ourselves. Otherwise, it is almost like setting up ourselves as a higher tribunal than Him.
If I cannot forgive myself then what am I saying of the power of the Cross? Not very much really. Do I have sin that is beyond the pale of God to forgive? Of course not. And yet forgiveness of myself continues to be one of the most crippling emotional factors in my life.
Another problem is that the inability to forgive oneself can beget self-hatred or self-loathing.
If I’m prone to this, can I properly love others? I’m thinking of course of “love others as you love yourself”.
I’ve mentioned forgiveness of myself being difficult previously and one commentator attributed this to inverted pride. I don’t believe – and I may be wrong - this has anything to do with pride as I derive no sense of humility from this; false or otherwise. I do know however, this is a by-product of my own particular distorted and erroneous thinking.
Whilst writing this I’m surprised to note that I can’t think of a Scripture relating to forgiveness of oneself. Perhaps somebody could help me out with this.
Does anybody else struggle in forgiving themselves?
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