Quote of the Day
How does my Bipolar impact me spiritually? Massively. As you can see, I have fallen into sin many a time, especially when disinhibited by my mania. I used to lead a Ladies’ Bible Study. I continued to lead it right through one of these episodes. Absolutely horrendous, the guilt I felt at that time. But incredible too, the way that the Holy Spirit has ministered to me in my countless times of repentance. I almost know Psalm 51 off by heart! It is so dispiriting how I never, ever seem to learn, how repetitive are my failures. But each and every time, my God restores me, forgives me, lifts me up and puts me on the level path again. He fills me with joy and gratitude. I really do know what God means when He says to me- “when you are weak, then you are strong”- when I am manic I feel supremely confident, and I always end up flat on my face. I have to accept my limitations, I am actually disabled by my Bipolar. But I also have to accept my responsibilities, I cannot use my Bipolar as an excuse for doing nothing for Jesus. God has a work for me to do, and the experiences of my poor mental health will probably be a big contribution to the work that God has planned for me. Nothing ever happens without reason. My favourite quotation is:-
MY GOD IS TOO WISE TO BE MISTAKEN, TOO GOOD TO BE UNKIND.
Tags: Christian Life, Mental Health
December 29th, 2011 at 6:40 pm
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December 29th, 2011 at 8:22 pm
“How does my Bipolar impact me spiritually? Massively. As you can see, I have fallen into sin many a time, especially when disinhibited by my mania.” – thanks for your post Stuart
This sounds very much like my own situation, and yet I am certainly not bipolar. It is only recently, after discovering my birth mother (who died in 1980) that I read the book by Nancy Verrier ‘The Primal Wound’. The book is considered to be the adoptees ‘bible’ and is a classic in adoption literature. In that book I see a mirror image of myself and I begin to understand why I consistently returned to the same sins throughout my life.
I do wonder where the limitations – and the boundaries – occur after reading this book. Is our own sinfulness and our ability to rise above ourselves always possible? It is only now that I seem to have the tools to not just understand myself but also to deal positively with my habits and my inclinations. But how come it had to take me seven decades to discover this awful truth about myself – not the sin but the background and the reason for it all?
How complex all this is . . .