Warning: This is one of those self-indulgent blog posts on Christian blogging that’s a little random.
Anita Mathias is one of those lovely, reflective, spiritual bloggers, that I love to read, as you get a real shot in the arm of the stuff that’s really important.
I do honestly wish that I were a little more spiritual full stop in my blogging. I know full well that I’m rough around the edges and a little aggressive combative forthright at times. But I can’t pretend to be someone I’m not. I’ve often not got my spiritual head on and this spills over into my blogging. Yes I am Worzel Gummidge.
However, I will try to acknowledge when I’ve erred. For the first time ever (as far as I can remember) I removed a post that was written about my recent experiences of training in palliative care. As a result of this blog post I received the following comment:
There are those who care for these people, those who give dignity, reality and even humour to those on their final journey. Many just get on with it. They don’t run around patting themselves on the back; they don’t see it as a ‘calling’ – rather it is just something they are good at and they don’t see them elves as anything special. They don’t crave the self-importance and self-magnification that the religiously minded call ‘vocation’. If such work truly is giving – whether these souls are Christian or not, it matters little because for many the spirit of their work fulfils Matt 6: 1-4.
So perhaps working in palliative care is just something to keep quiet about, lest you fall into the error of seeking praise and admiration from others – or worse, using your clients as fodder for emotional masturbation. Remember ‘We are unworthy servants; we have only done our duty.’ Lk 17:10
Absolutely right. As I read the comment I felt pierced and knew this was spot on. I’d blogged it for all the wrong reasons and blundered, so I deleted it pronto. Normally I let my folly stand, but it wasn’t appropriate in this case.
Anyway – as usual – Anita has a few blog posts that have given me pause for thought.
The first was entitled: One Way To Get A Lot Done When You Are Very Busy and cited Martin Luther as saying that the busier he was, the more time he spent in prayer. I noted that I wish I were like that, to which Anita respsonded:
Me too. I am sure it works though. So much of what we do is unnecessary. Perhaps with practice, the unconscious tunes in to the mind of God, and we stumble upon clever ways to do things, things we can eliminate, and the Gordian knots which can be slashed rather than unravelled.
My confession was:
The truth is that in the parable in 1 Corinthians it says:
If anyone builds on this foundation using gold, silver, costly stones, wood, hay or straw, their work will be shown for what it is, because the Day will bring it to light. It will be revealed with fire, and the fire will test the quality of each person’s work. If what has been built survives, the builder will receive a reward. 15 If it is burned up, the builder will suffer loss but yet will be saved—even though only as one escaping through the flames.
At times (most of the time) I feel that I build on wood, hay or straw.
It’s not nice but that’s how I feel.
I wonder if any other Christians ever feel this way? Thinking specifically about blogging, I wonder if it furthers the cause of the Kingdom in any way. Truthfully, I don’t think it does, but I still feel compelled to blog. It was this sort of thinking that made me change my bio from a “Christian blog” to a “Christian that happens to blog”.
Today Anita blogged: Christian Blogging: Ministering Without Preaching and I had to laugh at point number 3:
The things which are glaringly obvious to everyone else, but which we are oblivious to. Bloggers, despite themselves, make these dreadful revelations about themselves—unwittingly revealing their emotional contours, their prejudices, their fears, their secret patches of pride, shame and sensitivity. Many personal blogs can be decoded by an alert reader. Anyone who chronicles the ongoing story of their personal or spiritual lives on the web makes these unconscious revelations, and must make peace with this.
I recently blogged that psychiatrists can determine our personality traits – or more accurately flaws – based on our social media interactions. I find that you often get a feel for a blogger that you follow; it’s like you get to know them to a certain extent.
I try to be honest here, but obviously there are some things I don’t divulge; although, having said that, I can’t think of anything I’ve not revealed one way or the other. Anyway, it makes me wonder how accurate the impression I give of myself really is. And how important is this for Christian blogging?
Doesn’t going honest just put people off Jesus? I mean, revealing that we are just as weak, biased and frail as anyone else, isn’t conducive to the Gospel is it?